I try to hold on through the tears and the laughter

sooo...abouttt thatttttt

2006-10-23T20:06:19Z

lets seeee. where do we begin......

well in Math clASS today, Mr. Misiano must've had a protractor up his ass. He moved sean, which completely screws up our talking line. God, made me SO mad. So now i just scream across the room to him. Like, is he an idiot?

So obviously he was making countless mistakes, and someone decided to point one out to make him look like an idiot, i think we were at about ... 8? And he responded with..."Hey...we're all human." Yeah, i guess that explanation could work if you use it like once, and maybe even twice, but thats kinda pushing it. But he literally says it everyday. So then Mr Misiano mysteriously ran out of the room again, ( i think he has a mistress, named...Mrs.Lodge...maybe thats why shes got a baby in the oven) and sean moved back to his seat. It took Mr Misiano like... 5 minutes to realize Sean was there. IDIOTTTTT. He really bugged me today lol. And he used the word.."bluff".

Global was a joke. We had some sub, who like, couldn't even tell us her name.
Here, let me re-inact.

"Hello My Name Is Miss..............1....2...3...4...5........Shaffer."

honestly, it took her 3 minutes to say Shaffer.
i actually started to say if before she did.
Then she gave us logic questions. and played some stupid form of jeopardy. i think she made it up, because it was awful.
and one girl got them all right. and i got one right by accident.

pictures re-takes 06..hellllyeahhhh.
i think they should have retake retakes. but they dont.
i asked.

gym, i play soccer. but really i dont because we have ROSS. i go out on the field, and watch Brook Spencer drop like a fly. She is like a magnet for that ball. It directly goes to her and just hits her like a bolt of lightening and ... shes down. I mean, i go out there and the ball never touches my foot, but Brook, gosh...it touches her boobs, her head, her face, and her stomach. poor girl. well, then there's larry. who,well, gets way too into it. He has a ponytail...maybe thats why. Or maybe he just likes to hip check katie griffin every 4 minutes. either / or.

SOOOO kyle nojaim sits behind me in science, and he says answers quietly and then tells me to scream it out so she thinks im smart. so i do. and she tells kyle to stop telling me answers. so that plan failed. but it's okay, we will try it again tomorrow.

Also during science Kelcey myers was getting very frusterated with ms kotlar so she recited..."Ugh, ms. kotlar can go suck a dick..no, wait..lick a vagina?"
i laughed really hard, because, well yeah. it was just funny.

lunch lunch lunch
i just remember kara and sean fighting like they were a bunch of 6 year olds fighting over pokemon cards.
losers.

photo hahahaha. i dont do A THING in that class.
today...beth and i were sent on a mission to go get matboard from ms schrader.
but she didn't warn us that it weighed 50 pounds. we literally tried every way possible to carry it, which included dragging it down the hall while it made a whistleing noise. yeahhh we got yelled at for thattt lol. but then we rode the elevator and i made scott do the rest of the work for me haha.
and then she made us go get copies and bring something to my muskrat english teacher.

ummmmm. so all in all, it was pretty much an eventful day i would say.

p.s. i witnessed the most innocent hug today, between pwills and kgriff. soo cute.

p.s.s. this livejournal shit is off the wallllllz

Surveysss.

2006-07-10T06:39:05Z

Name yourself: Katie

- Family -
What is it about your dad that you love most? hes funny and understanding
What is it about your mom that you love most? shes understanding and caring
What irriatates you about them? sometimes they are annoying
Are you close with your sibling(s)?

- Childhood -
Were you a happy kid? yes i was!
What was unique about you when you were a child? i was adorable lol
What did you want to be? i think a doctor, or work at mcdonalds lol
Is life right now what you expected to be when you were younger? not at all
What did you expect it to be? for me to be living in new jersey, hanging out with the jersey kids
Who was your first best frined? when i was little, probaly Nicole or Jessica
Did you run a lot when you were a kid? yeah, but then i chipped my tooth.
What's one assignment/project that you remember having to do when you were a little? i dont remember.
Do you miss those days? very much so.

- Home -
Where do you live? camillus
How long have you been living there? for about 10 years or so
What makes this place different from any other place? hmm. its very cold in the winters.
Do you want to move? hmm, i would rather get out of here when im older
If you were forced to move out of your home, what would you do?go live with court
Where would you go? go live with court
What's one place that you call, "home away from home"? courtneys house
Where's one place that you would hate to live in and why: a box. its small

- Friends + Lovers + Enemies -
The greatest friend you've ever had: monikaaa
Why? shes awesome
Pick three objects that remind you of this person: a seashell, flipflops, a cd.
If you were to do something stupid, who would keep your head in check: kara
Do you have a lover? sometimes
Write lyrics that remind you of him/her:
Why do you love this person?
What is the greatest thing that this person has ever done for you?
If you had the resources, how would you show this person you appreciate them?
Who is the worst enemy you've ever had:
Why?
Is there any way you can reconcile with this enemy?
Would you want to see this enemy humiliated?
How?

- Music + Movies + Television -
What is the one movie that had you rolling on the floor laughing: dumb & dumber, billy madison
Which movie, you feel, was made specifically for your interest:
Name two hollywood stars you would hate to see on screen: nicole kidman, johnny depp
Name a singer/band that never fails you: jacks mannequin
Write down song lyrics that connect with you:
What is the greatest album you've ever owned: jacks mannequin
if you were to create a TV show, what would it be about? a day in the life of my family
Who would be in it? my family
What would be your theme song?

- Thinking -
Give three adjectives of what your life is like: fun, different, outgoing.
Are you happy? most of the time yes,
From this moment to ten years from now, list everything you see yourself doing: graduating highschool, getting into a great college, getting a good job, possibly become a doctor, get married, have 2 or 3 kids, and raise them welll in a good nieghborhood, and a good house with a white picket fence
Would you rather die an exciting, front-page news kind of death or a quiet, comfortable death? comfortable in my sleep
If you met your maker when you die and this maker handed over a note, what would it say on that note? i forgive you
How did you become the way you are? my family and friends
What are you hoping for? a long happy life
What's your motto? life goes on.

for the most part, yes
What's a memory that sticks out when you think about your sibling(s)? being teases & harrassed lol
What's one of the worst memories you've ever had involving a family member? when my grandpa died.

tullys & jessica's house.

2006-07-10T05:35:15Z

wellll. summer has been pretty good.

i went to mexico with a bunch of my familyy for Uncle John's Wedding. we stayed in a nice hotel. and it was hott outttt everyday we were there and it was hott at night too lol. and the whole time we were there it rained once for like 10 minutes lol and they called that a rainstorm. ha ha. the wedding was awesome. so much funn. but the mexican guys were .. perverted? lol. anyways. the malls were awesomee and Paty's family was really nice. The wedding was sad too, knowing John & bridget are going to be down there makes me sad. but there isnt anything we can do about it. oh well. but needless to say, mexico was amazing and a great learning experience for me. going to another country and everything. it was a lot of fun and i cant wait until we go back.

lately all i have been doing is hanging out with the girlss. and these past few days ive hung out with Courtney, Jessica, and Anne. haha its been a blasttttttttt. i love them. they are so funny. all we do is go out back and sit at jessica's table in her backyard and see who shows up. and tonight mr. hicks gave me an su football shirt and i was like sweeet haha. made me happpy.

im really looking forward to this summer, well the rest of it anyways.

i want to enjoy myself and have a good time and just relaxxx.

the concert is in like 2 weeks or so.
im excited.
i think it will be a blasttt.

ahhh Summmmmertime. <3

i love it.

ive been reading a lot lately. the gossip girl books. haha who knows why
it takes me like a day to read one. so why not lol.
and plus they are addicting after you read the first one. lol
i think tomorrow im gunna hang out with jess and them again.
but i might bring chris haha. since he's down&out lately.
i want to see him in a happy mood, which is something he needs.

im going to go find something better to do now :]

byeeeeeee

caribbeanchika @ 2006-06-16T12:23:00

2006-06-16T16:41:24Z

well it's june&hearts; and that means school is over.
i already took mostly all of my tests. they were all easy except spanish
i thought it would be easy but it wasnt lol.
ahhh summmmmertimmeee &hearts;
i have my science regents next weeeek sometime.

i went to tullys last nighttt with court.
then jessica and abby showed up
and mike and rob.
and then anne and annie
lol it was funnn. we were there from like 7 until 10:30
then we went over to wegmans and bought yummy bulk candy
hahaha anddddd the usual wegmans things.

im going to mexico in like a week & 1/2.
im excited
just to go on vacation with the whole family
since we havent done that in like 6 years
i miss it and everyone having fun.
it should be fun.
i hope
and i hope everything works out for john and bridget
they deserve the best.

well im cleaning and showering and painting my nails
so im going to go.

&hearts;

i want a pickle.

2006-05-25T02:50:03Z

ahhh today was alright.

school i was cold & hot at the same time.
weird.
but i wore my cheer attire with the girls:)

hmm. the end of the day was good too.

we went to .. hess and got free drinks
and then P&C to look at yummy pickles
and byrne dairy to buy sunflower seeds
hahaha. yayyy

it was a lot of fun <3

signs. signs. signs.
im very good at picking up on signs.
i can tell when someone feels uncomfortable
or when someone is acting weird.
i can tell when my mom gives me signs
and im seeing them
and its scaring me
im not going to do anything about it
unless something big happens.

but last time i saw signs,
i didnt do anything about it
and i was fucked for 2 months.

i dont want that to happen again.

ill just have to wait & see

curse of curves.

2006-05-22T22:43:17Z

well last night and today were weird.

life.
its so confusing.
people change.
and its hard to think about things after awhile.
like for instance, last night?
i've never heard my father swear.
hes a quiet man.
he doesnt say much unless spoken too.
and thats how walt is.
and last night for the first time ever
i heard him say nasty swear words
and it really made me sad.
i dont know.
it was just like, a really big fight
that had to occur at 11:30 at night.
it just ruined the whole night
and i sat up thinking about the fight all night long
it made me really sad.
and i dont know.

i miss having someone there for me
yeah , mikes there. but im not quite sure he cares.
its like this game of who hates who more.
its so stupid.
some of the things he says to me. grrr.
i dont know
things should work out.
but whatever
its just everything in life is so deiciving.
and its like im being played
by even my best of friends.
i hate thinking about certain people
it pisses me off.
its just sometimes, i need to know someones there
i dont know.
everythings so confusing
i wish he showed it
it should be me.
not me & my friends.
it grosses me out how he touches everyone
and like. whatever i dont even know.
it just creeps me out.
and like i shouldnt have to see it

school is almost over.
thank god.

freshies 06 :0

love, i get so lost, sometimes ♥

2006-05-14T00:01:37Z

hmm school this week was stressful and confusing.
im confused on a lot of things in my life.
i have like a massive headache right now
partly because Kara sprayed mens cologne
all over me at the mall.
that could be it.
omg i smell like a man. hahaha.
blahhh.
i went to the mall today with tom
to change the phones again
but we ended up just not doing that at all.
i bought mike's birthday present
i got him a hat & a shirt.
he will like the hat.
idk about the shirt.
i talked to him a lot today
and it put me in a good mood.
i sat in borders today for like 40 minutes.
and looked at books.
and yeah, i actually did sit on the ground.
and then mike called me.
but i missed it twice.
idk how.
but i did.
but it was relaxing.
I want to start reading the gossip Girl books
i really want to.
like right now. lol
oh well.
i couldve bought one today
but i decided to save the last ten dollars to my name.
since i know i will want to use it on something else
and then question why i bought the book.
morgan just called me
and told me to go to katies party
i dont know
my brother is probaly going to leave
and i probaly will have no ride home.
so i dont know.
mike might call me to go somewhere later.
but i probaly will be too tired.
and i dont know.
i still smell like a man.
my moms watching some stupid movie
booo.
i wish i was doing something
but then again im tired
and i want this whole phone situation to be figured out.
rightttttttt now.
but oh well.
tomorrow is mothers day.
tom and i got mom some chanel perfume.
she will like it
i hope.
i went to the mall friday with tom too.
and we were in JcPennys looking at perfumes
but no one was helping us
so tom went behind the counter
and was looking at everything
and smelling all the perfumes
and then some lady came and yelled at him
it was reallyyyyy funny.
then we went somewhere else.
but yeah.
then today i went to east hill for a little while.
it was alright.
then i went to the mall again with tom
and met up with kara morgan and emmey
we walked around
bought stuff for our mothers
and i bought mike stuff
i saw mike rotondo
and blahhhhh.
im really bored
and i dont know what i want to do.
but oh well.
i guess ill go figure out plans
OH YEAHHH.
i saw ethan tonight at the movies
hahahaha..
pooor kid works there.
tom might work there too
hahaha.

okayyyyyyyyyyy byeee.

the 8th. ♥

2006-05-09T02:44:35Z

sooooo lets see.

schooool is alrighttttt.
better than before.
and it will get better
i have hope :]

its getting stressful because all the
fricken teachers are trying to cram
last minute things into your head.
since officially there is only
a month left of school.
ill miss it.
because being a freshman was interesting
it was quite an experience.
and i loved it<3

i might have hated a teacher or two
but i got through the year.
lets just get myself through these finals
and then everything will befine.
tom comes home soon
which is exciting
he comes home like wednesday.
mikes birthday is thursday
which i need to do something about
hmmm.
ill think about that for awhile.

i have a pack of gum.
and it made me happy. lol
and mikey called me tonight
and it made me happy.
and its wonderful to hear his voice again.
:]
i have a science test to study for.
which i probaly will end up just studying for tomorrow.
but oh well.

ahhh. i feel wonderful right now.
the best mood in awhile.
tomorrow is tuesday.
and an A day at that.
which makes my day a lot easier. :]

i feel kinda sick right now
but overall im feeling great.
i have a head on my shoulders now
and i feel fine.

so aunt colleen
tells me that court & i are going to mexico
for uncle johnnys wedding
which is exciting
i would love to go
it would be amazing
considering patty lives in a mansion
i cant wait.

and everyone is talking about concerts.
i know that im going to kelly clarkson
and Jacks Mannequin/OAR.
which really im going for jacks mannequin.
ive loved them since...forever.
and it would be simply amazing to see them in concert.
like i would probaly cry. haha.
i cant waittttttt.
this summer is going to be good.
i can feel it<3
and gab can too
she told me so :]

well im in a good mood
and im going to go watch some television
and then fall asleep in a happy mood&hearts;

<333

where should we begin ..

2006-04-27T02:51:45Z

hmm

today was alright.

my hip hurt a lot all day
and i laughed a lot in science because
the sub kept yelling at me carrie & nate
and we wernt doing anything
but i would argue with her whenever she would yell at us
and carrie would flip out and swear
hahahah it was so funny
then nate had this confusing talk
about in complete sentances
and incomplete sentances. hahaha
and GLOBAL. was HISTARCLE hahaha
so she made us do this question for our test
and we were like how long?
and shes like ehh ya know. a quarter of the page
and i was like hmm okay. thanks for like .. telling us. lol
and nate was like ... to the thirteenth line.
it was so funny lol.
and then mrs. mirra cut nate off when he was reading and i like peed my pants.
then.. in lunch, brogan was singing a song from RENT
and he knew every word
and it was scary
lolol
then math is always interesting hahahaa
they called stefan a monkey.
when personally, he looks more like a lion.
that class just like .. makes me giggle now.
so stupid.
no point in what they do lol.
blahhhhh.
i have a spanish test tomorrrowww

i had dance tonight
and my hip hurt wickedd bad.
it was sad
and she made me dance a lot
because of the feis this weekend
which the only reason im in it
is because they BEGGED me lol
and because of Cael, Bren, Emily and Kat :)
only reason i do this stuff lol.
blahhh.

you piss me off so much.
i cant stand it anymore.
the way you look at me
like im the one whos wrong
well im not
you are.
and i cant stand you anymore
and im fucking done

ugh. whatever.

TOMORROW IM GOING TO THE GAME WITH MIKE hahhaa.
that should be interesting.
considering everywhere he goes, someone wants to beat him up

im praying for my aunt jenny too.
i want her baby to be okay.
i want my cousin to be fine.
i want another cousin to add to the 4059.
even though they get annoying, i love them
and i want everything to go well tomorrow.
please.
♥

and kitty.
i miss you
and i cant wait until you come homeeee :[

and we'd never know whats wrong without the pain.

2006-04-20T02:44:00Z

so today was stupiddd.

and i swear to god.
if they say a word to me or clare tomorrow in math
im going to fucking flip out
and just get up and leave
i dont care
because obviously our teacher is oblivious to it.

retard

caribbeanchika @ 2006-04-10T19:37:00

2006-04-10T23:38:15Z

so spring break is here.

and its been alright.

i have done something every day. so its been fun i guess.

friday night i went to tierneys. and we had fun.

saturday i went to a lax game
it was freezing
i left
and went to friendlys
then went to the mall
and saw benchwarmers with some cool kids.
it was soo funny.

then yesterday i went to the mall with nick
and we met up with mike and sat in the food court
it was so funny.
then we went in like every store
and looked for a present for gab.
blahhhhhhhh.
it was fun

then today i went to east hill.
and im probaly gunna hang out with court later
or play jailbreak
probaly not
idk

im bored
and im sorry.
and blahhhhhhhhh.

mike wants me to bring him sims.
hahaha yeahhh okayyyyyyy.

this spreak break better be good.

listen as your day unfolds, challenge what the future holds, try to keep your head up to the sky.

2006-04-03T22:32:48Z

hhhhhm.

i did most of my homework before 6:30 today
thats really good for me.

lately ive been procrastinating
and waiting until like 10:30 to do stuff.
but whatever.

i finished my global essay.
i felt like it was really good
but i dont think its what she wanted
but what can you expect
when she doesnt explain it to us?

we took a huge unit test in her class today
oh jeez. i thought it was hard.
i absoluletly suck in that class.
its so hard to concentrate on her.
i try.
but its impossible to listen to her voice
and her chicken scratch writing.
i write better than her
and like .. i write really bad.

i emailed my brother last night
because a lot was on my mind
and i miss him a lot.
and my parents are on my case
and hes more understanding.
thanks tommy<3

i was reading his journal
and he mentioned about when we were little
and how dad always used to say
right before we went to bed
"whats tomorrow going to be?"
and we would say "another day."

i miss that a lot too.
i misss my dad a lot.
i miss being a kid
and not worrying about what everyone was thinking
and what everyone was doing.

i want to be a kid again.
and be so excited to get my report card
because they were all A+'s.
i was so smart when i was little
i loved school.
i absolutely loved east hill
and i love it still.
its like a second home for me.
its where i go to think
or get away from everyone.
its big and its fun.

there is the gazebo. which gives you a nice view of the park and if its raining, it keeps you out of the rain :]

there are the picnic tables.
which i used to fill with dandelions when i was little. :]
which now i just go to sit or lay on and think.

there is the bigggg hill.
which is fun to roll down, or even
just fun to lay on it and watch the clouds
or the game of basketball/football going on.

there is the swings.
which are always fun

and theres the tube & the boat
which are childish memories :]
and the castle where i always used to hide in for hide & go seek haha.
such a good hiding spot.

but yeah.

school has been crappy
and i feel empty
and it seems like this year has gone by
wayyy too fast. and i want it to slow down
because its not going the way i planned
and before i know it
its going to be summer
and im not going to have a choice anymore.

blahhh.

i want to go to the lacrosse game
on thursday at LIVERPOOL
to see kitty.
because shes going away
and i dont know what im going to do with myself.
im sad.
oh boy.
i hope my mom lets me go.

hmmm. im sick of typing this
and im very tired
i didnt get much sleep last night
i kept tossing and turning
and waking up and was really hott.

its good to be alive.

hmmm

2006-03-29T21:30:15Z

i want to go to east hillll.
hmmm

there are certain people
you just keep coming back to
she is right in front of you
you begin to wonder
could you find a better one
compared to her now she’s in question

and all at once
the crowd begins to sing
sometimes the hardest thing
and the right thing are the same

maybe you want her
maybe you need her
maybe you started to compare
to someone not there

looking for the right one
you line up the world to find
where no questions cross your mind
but she won’t keep on waiting
for you without a doubt
much longer for you to sort it out

and all at once
the crowd begins to sing
sometimes the hardest thing
and the right thing are the same

maybe you want her
maybe you need her
maybe you started to compare
to someone not there

maybe you want it
maybe you need it
maybe it’s all you’re running from
perfection will not come

and all at once
the crowd begins to sing
sometimes...
we’d never know what’s wrong
without the pain
sometimes the hardest thing
and the right thing are the same

maybe you want her
maybe you need her
maybe you’ve started to compare
to someone not there
maybe you want it
maybe you need it
maybe it’s all you’re running from
perfection will not come

maybe you want her
maybe you need her
maybe you had her,
maybe you lost her to another
to another..

i guess im a "stat hoe"
haha. ookay.
whatever

Londy Pants123: katie halleck
Londy Pants123: i fucking love you

ahhaha LONDDYYYYY
at least he loves me!

today i had to fucking swamp in gym.
so stupid
i was nate's partner
we got in the red canoe.
and i so cheated because i didnt want my hair wet.
lol
so nate told me before he tipped the canoe over
and i jumped out when ms. koban wasnt looking
then he tipped it
then i let him drag it into the shallow end
andddd i could lift it up to flip it
sooo dylan did it for me,
and thennn...nate held the canoe for me while i got in
so it didnt tip lol
but i still couldnt get in
so dylan put his hand underwater
and i stepped on and just climbed in hahaha.
oh well.

my hair didnt get wet
but i took a shower anyways lol
and then alyssa and i were 15 minutes late to science
and mr prucha FLIPPED OUT
it pissed me off
grrr.
the rest of the day was gay

lunch was funny.
i forgot why.

i told nate to hide a chair underneath the table for me
hahahah he did lol
gotta love natewick
i wrote it on his hand, just incase he forgot.

hmmm. i dont feel good. and i dont feel like being home

east hilllllllll.

sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same<3

2006-03-27T23:02:07Z

Happy Birthday Craig
RIP
miss you & lovee you.

last night
someone called me gross?
hahahahahahhahahaha
thats so funny.
im not gross
but okay. lol
i just laugh about it haha.

well this morning i went to school for first period
to try to finish my photo project

i did NONE of it.
and rob was angering me lol.
so going to school for first period was pretty pointless
and stupid lol.

i left with nick like right before second
we drove to st. charles
and went to the mass/funeral for mrs. mazzoni.
it was sad.
i just want to like run up to evan and eric
and give them a hug.
idk.
but then after kara asked for a ride
so i took her and nick to mcdonalds
and we ate and it was wonderful
and the whole like varsity lacrosse team was there
then they like .. went to tullys? lol
idk.
but i wanted to play ddr.
but my mom wouldnt let me.
but kara is so weird.
she bites one end of the fry
and doesnt bite the other one
and like makes a little pile.
what a weirdo. lol
i love you kara ann.

then i went home and took my time
and got changed
and wasted a lot of time
and then went back to school at like 11:15
but i didnt go to 5/6 because i didnt feel like it
so i walked around with them
and thennnnn the rest of the day
was stupid
and pat bit me
lol and it hurt

ahh. english & spanish were alright
but i wish i didnt go back to school
it was pointless

and afterschool was gay

but when i came home i wanted to go to east hill
so dave and i went
and we saw the froshhh lacrosse team
and i saw kara ann
and then naquan came
and blah blah blahh
and meka came.
and yeah
i got back like 30 minutes ago
and im FREEEEZING.
:(

oh well.
it was fun.
and now im cold
and have homework to do
and maybe other stuff
if i feel like it
lol

schools so stupid

i want to be homeschooled
and just sleep
like whenever i want to
and hang out with whoever i want to
on the weekends
hahaha
oh thats THE LIFE
yayyy

okay bye bye :]

CLARE & I
HATE
BRINK
hahahaha
oh i love her :0
and we hate you. lol

lovers, they may cause you tears ..

2006-03-26T06:11:10Z

i had to dance somewhere at 6.
at the Glen Loch
it was like cool.
it reminded me a lot of a restaurant in new jersey
i liked it.
i got to see kitty and caelan and brenna.
it made me happy.
my mom was annoying
she kept yelling at me for stupid reasons
and it made me really mad
there was a random pole where we were dancing
and i always had to move aorund it lol.
idk

i went bowling tonight with some people.
it was fun
i guess.
i got home like 30 minutes ago
the car ride was wierd
and im sorry
thanks for holding my hand though.

my mom says im waking up early
for church tomorrow
yeah right

nick is picking me up at like 1:30
and we are going to mrs. mazzoni's wake.
its going to be sad.
but i hope eric and evan know that we are here for them
♥

RIP Mrs. Mazzoni
3/24/06

hi my names katie and i want to be your friend :]

2006-03-22T00:01:04Z

today was amusing.

i guess? lol

i dont know

im really tired.

gym was sad today because they called gavins name and i wanted to cry.
it was really sad.

then i went into the canoe with sarah and we almost tipped.
and i had no idea what i was doing because i wasnt here
the day they went over strokes. hahaha.

ohhh well. we have to swamp on monday. im kindaa pissed

jon jumped in the pool and then two kids tipped lol.

hmmm i dont knowww.

then in science mr prucha called gavins name
and it was sad again.

dfjosdfiogi grrr.

then in lunch.
londy came to visit me.
and we shared a chair. haha

then some girl poured water on him
and he got mad
and almost got in a fight with some kid
it was sad
i dont like when londy gets mad
and angry
and fights.
:[
yikes.

then the rest of the day was good.

then at like 1 i had to take this math test
its like a contest
and 6 freshman got to do it.
and it was like me and emmey
and idk who else i wasnt paying attention.
and me and emmey were at the table with p shan.
hahahaa oh god. he was swearing through the whole
entire test.

it was possibly the hardest 70 minutes of my life.
i havent learned anything on that test. lol
oh my gosh. it was so hard.
pat is so smart though.
lol but he went A B C D A B C D A B C D A C C
hahahaha. oh god.
it took me like 10 minutes for the first two problems. lol

oh well.
i wrote omit for like 8.
hahaha.

oh well.
i tried.

then afterschool was good.

mmmm. good days make me happy♥.

i might go see the play Peter Pan tonight.

im soo tired though. so idk.

oh jeez my phones ringing.
bye byeee :]

i miss gavin god. :[

2006-03-20T20:53:05Z

today was like ... wierd.

i dont know.

i found out that gavin is gone for good.
and hes not coming back.
and im going to miss him a lot
i didnt get to say goodbye.
and hes working at some place.
and now the seat next to me in science is empty
and we cant do Canoeing anymore, even though i made him do it.
i wont hear his lectures anymore
and i cant tell him about my bad weeks
and how we hate HER.
and we cant talk about how doing bad things is bad
and how he would say
"katie, you're going places."
or "i wish i was like you katie, i messed up and i wish i could go back."
or being lab partners with him.
or having him be on my Survivor team.
and telling me about florida
and giving me that HUGE lollipop
that i refuse to eat.
oh jeez.
this is going to be a rough end of the year
without GAVIN GOD in science and gym
:[

i miss him

before lunch was bad.
after lunch was bad.
kinda.
i dont know
do i ever know ANYTHING?

my math teacher gave me this thing.
i have to take a test tomorrow
with 5 other freshman.
and it takes an hour
and were in like some contest
and i feel nerdy.
and wierd.

hm. oh well.

i feel sick.
and i want to talk to someone.

and i want to go to east hill.

stop fucking snowing! >:(

thankkk youuu <3

boys are cheats liarsss there such a big disgraceee. haha i love that thing.

2006-03-20T03:51:25Z

today was sunday and usually sundays are boring
but today was fun.

tom went back to college tonight. it was sad
mom cried as usual.

you were being gay. haha
so i decided to do something with chris clare.

it was fun.
we went to the mall and walked around and sat at the food court. haha

i got a wendys fix n' mix and it was sooo gooood.
then we went to visit mike rotondo but we got yelled at lol.

then he drove me home and i came home and did nothing really.

then mike rotondo came to visit :]

haha. hes so funny

we watched a movie and talked about how im going to paint his walls at his apartment next weekend. hahaha

oh well.

im kinda excited for school tomorrow.
im bored of this whole drama thing.

and i hate two faced people.

thanks for tonight :]

i love march♥

2006-03-14T21:24:33Z

i love march.
and even YOU can't ruin it :]

today was alright.
i stooood my ground.

mmmhmmm.

i want new sneakies.

:P

la la la

lets hang out.

BOIWOIWEOICOISOUJTOUTOSJUF

today in global we had to sit indian style and mike couldnt and his legs were like all wierd and it made me laugh really hard.

HHHHHHOKAY.

its sunday.

2006-03-12T19:48:44Z

well last night i waited for a call in which i didnt recieve.

hmm. maybe you shouldnt promise things you cant keep.
because you fucking suck at it.

whatever.

i went to bed and i couldnt like sleep.

i woke up early.
put some clothes on, brushed my teeth and went to church.
i sat next to beth. ahhaha.

i saw conor. and i was wondering why he was there. lol

then i went downstairs and ate doughnuts and juice.
then i went to my religion class.

which was pretty much me laying on the table the whole time.

but anywayssss. i got out at like 1:30 and i signed up for a bunch of shit.
i dont even remember what i signed up for.

then i went with my brother and he bought me mcdonalds and yeah.
we had fun.

i came home and talked to nick about lots of stuff.

gr.

i want somebody i can count on.
and somebody i can call my own.
and you just cant do that, can you?

when everything is wrong, we move along.

2006-03-09T22:18:36Z

hmm today was crazyyyy.

the morning was okay.
i dont know.

i go to school and it just seems pointless. because i dont do anything.

i dont know. rogiodfisovkfiie

the end of the day was cool.
mr newvine made us swear that we would work on our notecards at home if he lets us go to his room and watch the game. so we did.

i couldnt focus lol.

then i went to spanish and listened to it on the radio. lol

we have to do a spanish presentation tomorrow and we have no idea what we are going to say.
we are totally winging it. hahaha

oh well.
i stayed after in spanish to listen to the end of the game.

then my mom called me in the hall but i couldnt hear her because everyone was screaming.

then i called him. and i shouldnt have. but oh well.

then my mom told me she couldnt pick me up until 3:30 so i waited with tim
then she changed it to like 4

then pat TACKELED ME in the hall. and took my phone lol

then i came home and i have to do those notecards for newvine and thats it.

i wish you like cared, and like told me what you were doing and .. idk.

iii wwaanttt us backkkkk.

eroidfpidfoivkxixos

gah.

you can't go wrong.

2006-03-06T23:28:31Z

i havent really eaten anything since friday.
so thats like three days.
i ate a little at lunch today.

i ate a bag of chips. which is a start i guess.
and no im not fucking annorexic.

i just dont have an appetite.
which is sign for something bad
and i dont want to talk about it

but anyways. i feel okay.

last night i spent time with my family. and it really made me happy. i miss my family. i like knowing i have them there for me when i need to cry and stuff. because i cant to some people ..

i didnt win the prize last night.
i was kindaaa pissed.
i lost by one.
gah.

i miss baby anne. shes so cute. i could like kidnapp her and she wouldnt cry. she'd probaly laugh and walk around looking like a troll. oh shes so cute.

today at school was alright. kind of confusing, but hey.

i just miss everything.

and i want to go to east hill right now.
and lay on a picnic table and think.
think about everything.
think about school.
family.
life.
you.

argh.

im trying my best to hold on.
and stay strong.
but i cant for much longer.
because i hate this.
and i dont like how this is.

boooo.

i went to the library 3 times today.
first period
second period
tenth period
haha it was great.

okay enough. its dark out now. :(

i have lots of shit to do.

soo seee yaaaaaa

♥

lifeee sucks

2006-03-05T05:21:42Z

i havent eaten since like last night.
so i havent eaten in like 26 hours.

hahaha.

i have no appetite.
its wierd.

i get stomachaches a lot.

and my heart feels like its going to explode out of my body.

i found out shit tonight that pissed me off.
i dont understand what she was thinking.
we wernt raised like that.

i want to go back.
and do this all over again.

shittt-tayyy

2006-03-02T23:17:54Z

RIP Ryan Bishop. 3/1/06
miss you♥

life isnt fair.
ever.
and i hate life right now.

so today sucked.
and i wanted to cry most of the day.

and it sucked.

all my classes sucked today too.

3rd period i got a 74 on my test. boo. i hate that class.
science. oh jeez. i swear that man hates me. i got sent to the
"back of the room" today. like oh my god. why dont you just put
me in a goddamn corner.

i didnt care.
i didnt do shit back there besides right i love cookies all over my index card.

lunch sucked. again.

everything sucked.
i cant concentrate in math class now.
so i like suck.

tomorrows mr. west genesee. im going.
it will be funny. but i will be sad.
so i probaly wont have fun.
and i think ill probaly go get something to eat afterwards.
but yeah.

so today sucked times a bajillion.

i hate school.

fuckk you mother fuckerss woop woop

the end of the day was the worst.

and now i have a headache.

</3

today sucked. like x 2039120093. it sucked.

2006-03-01T20:05:52Z

today was horrible.

so i guess you could say i got ignored. all day.
he doesnt care.
at all.

whatever.
i feel like september is happening all over again.
where he can just be an asshole and its okay.

but really its not and its stopping.

1st period i did nothing but MORPH faces with p shann. it was the funniest thing that happened to today, besides gym.

we morhped tierney into shrek, and amber looked like a molester. hahhahaah ohh fun.

2nd period sucked because i couldnt go to the library because that bitch ass lady wouldnt let me. and it pissed me off.

3rd period i took a test and i had no clue whatsoever on what was on it. i just took educated guesses on mostly every question.

gym i did nothing but itt was funny because we told evan that the boys were supposed to go the other way so when we were like half way down the stairs going to the lockerrooms HE TURNS AROUND AND GOES ALL THE WAY BACK AROUND.

i like peed my pants.

science sucked.
its either im stupid.
or we learn pointless shit.

alot of things in my life seem to be pointless. kind of like this day.

lunch sucked. because idiot ignored me. but okay. i guess ill just do it to him tomorrow. see how he likes it.

after lunch was stupid.

math was gay.

english i was late, and we did stupid things.

spanish we took a quiz. it was easy but i was unconcentrated.

afterschool was stupid too.

why did you even walk me to my locker. it was pointless and it wasted me an extra 3 minutes, that i spent staring at you while you walked away from me. stupid.

today was stupid

i took the fucking bus home.

there was like 5 people on it. and i almost missed it.
stupid. now im home early
and i have to go to the goddamn cheerleading banquet and i dont want to go.

i want to sleep and shower and stay home in my room for hours.

fuckkk you.

:]

mmkay well i guess ill talk to you bitchies later - peace out yo'.